I still don't know where I am anymore, where I stand. I guess the real question is, did I ever? Or was it only what I thought I knew. I'm honestly so sick and tired of my emotional bullshit, but what can you do - it's in me and it's consuming me. I'm a grumpy bitch these days and it's not fun! I'm sick of school, and everything else. I want out. I suppose it's jealousy that drives you insane sometimes - or maybe you just need a sense of direction. I hold grudges easily. I'm upset when I don't get my way. There are flaws and flaws and flaws. I don't know where I'm getting with this anymore, but honestly, I want out. At the same time I'm determined to prove them wrong. :(

I need a tub of cookies & cream ice cream

The other night I was looking through my old memory card in bed, it got so nostalgic! So the photos were like just over a year ago, yet they felt so far away. I was missing it so much. I know, we shouldn't be pondering over the past, but I can't help but long for old days - where the most memories were made. It made me heaps glad that I used to take heaps of photos, even though I didn't take photos everywhere, I really did capture the other moments. With every photo, I remember what we were like in that moment - most of the time we were happy cunts just mucking around with the camera! It's a shame it feels like ages since I've felt that way. I remember iceskating a few months ago, after taking a photo, Darithy's like "look how happy we look!" haha i love when people point stuff like that out. Well, all of a sudden I'm feeling happy again. I want to be happy again so I'm sick of letting things get in my way. I'm going to be happy whether you like it or not! :)