I am starting to read a book called Tuesdays With Morrie, and hopefully, by the time I finish reading it, Morrie's wisdom will sink in. Highly unlikely, as that takes time and experience but I hope I'll feel refreshed at least. Days pass quickly now and sometimes you realize wow, weeks go by and you don't even remember the slightest bit of it. I feel old, and that's not right. This happens though, right? I'll just take it as it is and hope for the very best. There's sunshine ahead. Well, there better be! I'm finally allowed out on Sunday and if Newtown isn't its usual bright self, I don't know what will be anymore. I'm scared to screw up with my English assignment. I'm scared to screw up with my Textiles assignment. I have a whole lot of fear on me right now and I just don't know what will shake it. I wish things were dandy at home, but the daunting thing is knowing that it'll be like this until I'm free, of HSC. I can't wait to be free. I want to live my life the way I want to. I know I won't have a car or even my P's at least, nor will I have saved up my travel money, but I do know I want to run. Keep pushing and you'll see how far away I'll be. :) On a lighter note, there's camp soon! I'm looking forward to it, it's actually the only thing I'm pumped for, but I don't want to be pumped for it because everytime I'm pumped for something these days, it turns chatttty.

UWS on tuesday made me realize how much I don't want to be at a uni that's so in the middle of nowhere, thanks! it also made me realize that i shouldn't bother with certain people. ooooops i gotta run for school now !

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i'm not allowed out on sunday, because apparently i'm grounded til monday. i'm only cut because she said yes in the first place and i was looking forward to it since monday haha. it's okay though. i guess, if i'm not allowed, i'll try and not let the day go to waste. and for the haters,sure, i'm a rude, drunken, selfish, bitchy slurrry and i'll sure as hell fail in life. believe what you want. i'll see how it goes! i know a lot of people treat everything as a competition, fair enough, but i'm willing to accept that i won't be better than you guys :) i'm fine with being me. i just need to find out who that is first! days have gotten better at school, but i hate being sick - i hope i'm not too sick next year, because i don't do anything. i'm at my worst. my nose hurts!

i love talking to great people on msn, you know who you are!
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